I wanted 250 today, I got 260. We stopped there because they were looking pretty fucking ugly,.. So I mean I probably could have pulled an ugly 265 but it would have been nasty. I saw the video after and may have gagged a little lol.
But yeah. 225 was my original goal for 2013. Then it was 250. I pulled 260 to lockout. So There’s that.
Thanks for that! :)
On another note. I need to get my bangs fixed because my hair part is doing this weird bald looking thing….
People with whom I share positivity and happiness will never understand that what I have really longed for was a partner in the opposite side of the mood spectrum. That other side, so commonly given the labels of psychology and misjudgment, is too often given the mask of cognitive distortion. Ideologies and philosophies given by the understanding of what lies beneath and above the surface of unpleasantry are immediately dismissed as something so invalidated as the blabber of a toddler. Intelligence, derived from sources that do not fit the standards of the popular idol of happiness, is immediately viewed as trash.
“We don’t actually try that hard to diagnose the crazies–we already know they’re batshit. And lets be honest–how sad would anyone really be over a psycho dying of some illness? I see it as a service to society.”—
My insanity started at age 14 I think. Back then I had an enormous blood lust. Luckily, I never seriously harmed anyone.
When I was 15, my bipolar disorder kicked in. By the time i was 18, i had to stop a playground date short because i thought there was a killer monster behind the tree. I really liked that girl. When i was 19, i started having these terribly vivid scenes in my head of my parents being slowly tortured to death. I still have them. Even right now. By the time i was 20, i failed or withdrew from so many engineering courses all because i was depressed and unable to focus. Now I’m 21, and I’m waiting to get an appointment set up for electroconvulsive therapy. My doctors are being slow. I lost 40lb of muscle.